mmhhh

being sick wasn't my plan right before heading to the beach. but it also means i can catch up on the that sleep i have been lacking, and the tv shows i have missed. give a hand up fo being sick(:

halloween

knotts scary farm: the bestest place to go. they have 3 brand new mazes. if you haven't been. get there fast!

october feelings

walked out this morning and stood.

my little sister stoped and asked. "why are you just standing there?"

i smiled. "can you smell that?"

my sister now disgusted and walked toward my car.

"why do you want to smell the air. thats weird."

though she was just taking my words from my mouth.

"your not really understanding what i am saying. i smell rain, the cold air,

the chills of the fall. i hear the leaves, watch the rain hit the ground."

I looked at her and asked again.

"do you smell Christmas coming? or just feel it?"

my little sister shook her head.

"no"

before i drove off i took one good sniff and was off.

sanD

went down to san diego last weekend. got to say, it is so quite and peaceful (unlike the city).
my grandmother has a house that lye's on a golf course, so of course it would be quite. she has not yet moved in, so we were to sleep on the floor. still comfortable.
why is the city crazy, and the country quite? gah! questions again. well just wanted to let you know where i was. aha, i recommend in this crazy bipolar weather, to head to the beach and just marvel at the beautiful clouds, we wont see alot of them.
(and to those that read my blog, i will write MON-FRI. the weekends are free.)

                                         

no one who??

my name, shy

i hide from you

you speak but i turn my head

my name, silence

im part of you but i am not there

can you see me

i'm here

my name, invisible

weird, hated....

who m i?

_no one_

rain

rain

how i love you

cold

wet

and simple

why can't i hold you

simple leads to complicated

as i stand confused and heart broken

i deside to jump on you

though you run threw my toes and your feelings not yet hurt

damn you

cuz now im left in the sunny sky with nothing but your leftover rain pour



LoVe oR wAr

love or war?

what is love compared to war

love being passionate

war.....ash

to love someone is too be forever

war is and will always be

do you and i love

do you and i commit war

we are one

one fight can change everything

but one kiss can heal to broken cracks

you kiss my cold lips to heal

i lower my gun

as you lower as well

is it over?

a kiss

i wish please

my mirror has been glued together

my arms are clean

i love you more then war is pressed against us.

love or war? though we hate war

and it will be with us

love is more and will always be



embarressed? bothered? stabbed? and then killed.

does it bother you when i giggle when you held my hand at the beach

though ive never had anyone as cool as you to hold it first

does ut bother you when your with your friends that i tag along

though your amazing just to be with

does it bother you that i love when you kiss my check

even though i am not ready to be kissed on the mouth

does it bother you that i like to take you hats cause i like you

well it bothers me that you walk away from me when you with your stupid friends

it hurts me that u dont care

it bothers me that youd rather hang out with every other

girl but when come im less important but you love to taLK to me

my heart is hanging by a thread

any minute you will take your knife and rip it out

but later youll say sorry after i have replaced it with another

i have feeling for you and you have them for me....

why do you just stand there with a knife and say you love me?

IT HURTS!